Day #5 – 11/12/21

I honestly am really happy with this day and how it happened! In general, the only thing I think I struggled with was Regulation, as I don’t have a sleep log prepared for today, and I am now slightly off my showering schedule. Perhaps I struggled a bit with Resolution, as I didn’t get much work done this day, but I think that’s balanced out with how I used it towards Sincerity. Besides that, however, everything else went well. I decided not only to spend time with friends after school, both through Board Game Club and through a sleepover, but I did so while allowing myself to do the things both I and my friend Enjoyed. Furthermore, I felt mentally present for most of the day, though I did catch myself picking at my skin a couple of times. I think having someone who I can talk to somewhat easily in Calculus helps, and I was able to work on a couple of my American Eyes while doing so. Sincerity was easily my strongest suit though, as I was able to discuss some conflict between peers to one of my teachers, and she was willing to listen which was wonderful. I am just reminded of how important it is to state what makes you uncomfortable to people who are willing to do something about it, and how comforting it is to know that they have.

I hope to keep the pattern of Sincerity up, though I know I’ll have to work on some Regulation this Saturday to make up for the missed log.

Day #3 – 11/10/21

Overall, I have relatively mixed opinions about this day. In regards to Sincerity, I think I somewhat failed, as within one of my classes I did not speak up about my discomfort with something (though, I did listen to music and that calmed me down, so that was quite nice). However, I still did what I wished to do in the day, and decided to join for a round of Ping Pong club even though ping pong is not my strong suit. I think my Awareness was stronger than yesterday, as I barely picked at my skin and stopped myself once I started. Furthermore, I kept myself in the present moment during difficult-to-focus in classes. Overall, I think my strongest part was actually Enjoyment, as I participated in many activities I joined, and even whipped out my cello to have some fun by playing Enter Sandman by Metallica. It’s the best I’ve felt in a while. Sadly, with this my Regulation was not great, and I not only used my phone in bed but stayed up later than I would normally encourage myself to. (Plus, I scheduled two events at the same time! Not my strongest moment)

Sleep Log
8:17-8:33 – In Bed
8:45 – Pajamas
9:30 – Water
10:05 – 10:20 – Cello Practicing
11:09 – In Bed, Lights Out
11:24 – Phone Off

11:41 – 7:11 AM Sleep, 7:30 Hours, 77 Sleep Score, One Notable Wake-Up (5:16-5:24)

Tomorrow, I’ll focus on being more Regulated while trying to keep the pattern of increased Enjoyment and Awareness up. As well, with Sincerity I hope to keep my mental awareness there, but be further cognizant of my boundaries, violations of such, and then communicating that to who is necessary.