today was a hard day but i stuck the my goals pretty well. I couldn’t get out of my head and I made myself be a little vulnerable in order to get that peace. Something that I have attempted to understand is that just because you can explain what you should be feeling and or thinking doesn’t mean that you are actually allowing yourself to feel emotions and stuff. I didn’t get much sleep saturday night do to racing thoughts so i was kinda tired but overall i’m pound. How the day went is how i want hard days to go.
Tranquility: I woke up before work this morning and allowed myself space and time to meditate and be calm and that really helped me through the day when my mind wouldn’t be quiet. I’ve also began watching ted ed videos to calm myself and carrying a round yarn to knit when I get overwhelmed so I can focus my energy away from over analysing which is nice. I give myself a B-
Cleanliness: i made my own personal cleanliness goals for the day, keeping personal hygiene and keeping my space clean and all. I did succeed in going through my book and cleaning the shelf in my room which was nice. I give myself a B+
order: I came home and meal prepped for the week which will allow me to stick to eating what I should and will keep me from needing to worry about food for the rest of the week. The fact that I, for the rest of my life, will need to plan and make a meal roughly 3 times a day for the rest of my life making sure I’m getting proper levels of fat, protein and vitamins and minerals and all of the important things and that scares me so much. It’s a very overwhelming thought. Keeping order and making meals in advance has done alot to calm that anxiety. I give myself a A-
resolution: i made it through the day and did what i need to do. I did the work I needed to do, I felt like the day just kinda flew by though. I give myslef a B+
My own personal boundaries: I was kinda quiet today and wasn’t as spunky as I normally am, and that’s ok. Overall I think I kept personal boundaries and did what I needed to do. I also had a hard conversation with one of my coworkers that i wasn’t looking forward to setting my own boundaries and such so i’m happy I give myself a B+