Month: November 2021

I was doing well and kicking arse, taking names, being productive and sticking to my goals and then something i wasn’t expecting happened. I got dumped, which is certainly not. The worst thing that could have happened but i’m kinda in a bit of a shock. I haven’t been in a relationship for too long, only a couple of weeks and I kinda just sat and processed for the rest of the day.

cleanliness: I didn’t do as well at this as i had hoped that i would, i made hot chocolate and left the mug on my desk, and only had it in me to brush my teeth

order: my thoughts are scattered, i’m not feeling very ordered right now because some of my order was taken away and now i’m just kinda lost, maybe that’s not good but it how i am right now i give myself a C+

tranquility: given that i was just dumped i’m remaining calm and relitively good in my being i guess i’m going to really need to focus on this one the next couple of days. I give myself a B+

resolution: well i wasn’t late to anything and i took all of my vitamins. lost in what i should do, i don’t know what there is to do i give myself a B

human: well i wanted to ask more questions of people today, and to be upset but i was really anxious and felt like everyone was staring at me and felt like i couldn’t be a person comfortably. I didn’t focus on positive self-talk and I let my decisions regarding my wellbeing and contentment be defined by what I thought others wanted. I didn’t do great here. But thats ok, i don’t think i want to grade this one today

I had a really good day today. I woke up on my own before my alarm which was weird but I felt energized and was for some reason excited to get my day started. I kept up with my orderly routine of making my bed and cleaning my room before going to make my breakfast, giving me a good start with 10/10 for both order and cleanliness. I went to school and felt very organized with my work which is always good and helpful. I kept very patient with myself and when I began to feel stressed about anything I calmed myself down quickly. After school I went to a workout class and hung out with a friend which was really relaxing and helped with my kindness. Day eight was for sure one of my better days for my virtues and myself.

Overall, I think I consider this day simply mediocre, not a true success nor a failure. In Awareness, I felt somewhat proud of myself as I finally listened to a piece of advice my therapist gave me: tell individuals who can hold you accountable about the bad habits you want to break. In this, I feel that I succeeded, even if I did catch myself picking at my skin a couple times. However, I think I struggled with Regulation today, as I used my phone for around 20 minutes once in bed, and I had to force myself to stop using it by throwing it across my bed. If nothing else, I remembered to shower and brush my teeth extra well for my filling tomorrow. As well, I remembered to be Sincere for most of the day, and with that I felt a bit more comfortable in conversation while also maintaining ground on my opinions (and stopping a silly debate from becoming a whole blown fight; I hate conflict!). I don’t really think I succeeded with my Resolution though, as I struggled to get the minimal work I had done (as it was minimal), and I instead needed to make a plan for the next morning. I don’t think I really did wonders with my Enjoyment beyond the interesting conversation I had, but if nothing else I acknowledged what was not key to my happiness, and acted according to that.

Sleep Log

8:18 – Water
9:12-9:40 – Shower + Brush Teeth
10:17 – Lights Off + In Bed
10:40 – Off Phone

10:47 – 6:04 AM – 7:17 Hours – 78 Sleep Score, No Notable Wake Ups

Tomorrow, I hope to keep with my schedule for work; as well, I think I’ll be setting a strict “phone-off” time as to keep myself from mindlessly using my devices. I also wish to keep up the current habit of Sincerity, (and luck for my filling tomorrow!)

Industry: 4/5
Order: 4/5
Flexibility: 3/5
Resolution: 1/5
Tranquility: 1/5

I would say that I did about as well as I conceivably could today. I used almost all of my limited free time to do schoolwork. It was highly restricted because the robotics team meetings last until 5:00pm. That meant I didn’t really have any time to do schoolwork until 9:30pm because my schedule was very full. I gave myself a high rating in both industry and order because I got a fair bit of total work done. My flexibility ranking is lower than it could be because I acted too harshly to some other students who threatened me with razor blades a few times as a joke. Meanwhile, my very low tranquility score was inspired by how I freaked out over losing hearing in one of my ears for a few hours. It’s mostly okay now, for reference. It should be a lot easier to maintain an acceptable level of tranquility tomorrow alongside order because I won’t be going to robotics. I sure will need it though because there’s a lot of math homework due on Wednesday. It will be a real test of my order virtue to finish all of it in a reasonable timeframe. After that, the week appears to lighten a bit.

Today I woke up feeling not much resolution to go to school, but I was able to wake up and go and when I got to school I found more resolution in doing my school work. Overall I would say that my resolution was average. On my order virtue I did a better job as I gave myself a good amount of free time, and left plenty of time for my homework. I was about average in industry as I was not particularly efficient, but I did get what I needed done in a reasonable amount of time. On moderation I was able to successfully moderate my homework and free time, so I would say that this was overall pretty good. Finally on justice today I would say that I did a good job, because there were no obvious examples where I would not give people that I knew equal chances, despite how they have acted in the past. Overall it was a pretty average day with most of my virtues being slightly above average.

Today was one of the medium days. I have had a cold for the last week or so, and today was the worst day so far. The cold definitely screwed with my tranquility virtue, and after getting home I did 0 work in favor of resting. Luckily I had completed a large portion of my homework for the day at school, otherwise I might have been swamped and my productivity virtues would have been full fails. As it stands, they were only partially completed. My disconnection virtue was a failure too because my method of resting from my cold was getting some hot drinks and laying down on my phone for a few hours. I’ll be getting a lot more sleep tonight than the day before, so hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Productivity was a struggle today, as I didn’t get much work done even though I had a lot of free time to do it. I went to tennis practice and worked out, but other than that I didn’t do a whole lot. I did well with Tranquility as after working out I took a nice shower and a nap. After that I enjoyed some time with my parents catching up because I was very busy last week and didn’t have much time to talk with them. I also improved on my virtue Acceptance. I found myself wishing I had done more work, but I quickly reminded myself that it is okay to take a break and not constantly be productive. Finally, before bed I worked on my virtue Cleanliness by making a to-do list for the next day and organizing my school work and schedule for the upcoming week. 

After two super busy days, I decided Cleanliness would be an appropriate virtue to work on for the day. My room had gotten slightly messy and I had a couple bags full of clothes and toiletries from having to jump from activity to activity days prior. I took the time to unpack those and tidy up my room when I got home from school. Then, I went to tennis practice where I tested myself with the virtue of Acceptance. I wasn’t having the best day on the court and found myself missing more shots than I usually do. Instead of getting frustrated, I tried to simply have fun and enjoy the sport. I accepted that I will not be perfect and I will make mistakes, and most importantly that tennis is just a game. Before bed I did a ten minute stretch while listening to music, which really helped with Tranquility and set the tone for a great night of sleep. 

I spent today working on my virtues Kindness and Productivity. At tennis I made it a goal to give out five compliments. When I saw someone hit a good shot or play a nice point I let them know, and I also complimented several people’s outfits. It was awesome to see people react when I complimented them and I think I will definitely start doing it more often. I think I did a great job spreading positivity to others around me today. I also worked on Productivity when I used thirty minutes of down time between clinic and my lesson to finish my physics lab. I’m proud of myself for getting some work done instead of throwing away thirty minutes by scrolling through my phone and getting no real benefit.

Today was a great day for me to work on my virtue Acceptance. I had a math test and didn’t do as well as I would have liked to. Usually I would be super hard on myself and let it ruin my day. However, I accepted the fact that I couldn’t change it and it’s okay not to be perfect. I will simply work harder to prepare for the next test and hopefully do better. I also worked on Cleanliness today, as I organized my room and made my bed in the morning. Starting the day off with a clean room boosted my mood and helped me be more productive when I came home to a clean workspace. I had a really busy day as I went to school early to get math help, went straight from school to tennis, and went straight from tennis to an award banquet. I didn’t get home until around 10, and had to get to homework straightaway, so I didn’t have much time to work on my other virtues. 

My focus for today was Tranquility, and I did an excellent job with it. I have a math test tomorrow and have been studying and stressing about it a lot. In the middle of studying I decided to take a break and listen to a ten minute guided meditation on youtube. This really calmed my mind and body. While the aim of meditation was to work on Tranquility, I also worked on Productivity because I spent my down time in a productive way. I could have spent the time scrolling on my phone, but instead I took time to relax myself and find peace. I also took a day off of tennis today, which was a kindness to myself as I was tired and sore. I didn’t work on Acceptance or Cleanliness, but it was still a productive day because I worked on three of my five virtues.

Order 4/5 – I didn’t do any major organization or cleaning today, but I did try to organize my notes a bit. On top of that, I have a pretty clear idea of how much work I need to do this week and a plan of when to do it, so that’s a nice change of pace.

Resolution 1/5 – I didn’t do any painting tonight, unfortunately. It just slipped past my mind for the most part, and by the time I remembered, I just decided to skip a day. I’m still definitely on track to finish by Friday, as long as I don’t miss another day like this.

Confidence 2/5 – I was hoping to work more on this virtue today, but I was pretty busy at school. Mondays really are hectic! I did continue my general efforts to be more outgoing in class, however, so I’m going to give myself a point for that.

Health 2/5 – I was definitely lacking a bit with this virtue as well today. I did try to eat healthily, but I got basically no exercise, unless you count walking up three flights of stairs with a backpack on. I plan on going for a walk tomorrow, as the weather is going to be beautiful.

Responsibility 4/5 – I got a good amount of work done today, and I plan on doing a lot tomorrow as well. I need to have a lot done by Wednesday, so I’m going to need to have a productive day tomorrow.

moderation- D

frugality- D

accountability- B

self-discipline- B

cleanliness- A

Today was one of my more stressful days of the challenge because I have a physics exam tomorrow. Because of this I struggled with spending time with my family. Today I would also consider a failure because I went out for lunch today and one of my goals was to not spend money on food when I don’t have to. I didn’t make it to the gym today but I did play football after school. I did well on studying for my physics exam so that is a positive. I also helped my mom in the kitchen which was also a positive. 

Day 7

Tranquility: 4: I felt like tranquility today has gone better than it usually does. I was able to come up with a good list of things that I was willing to make peace with, and just writing my thoughts down made me feel calm.

Silence: 1: I was so busy today that I never got a chance to take a few minutes of silence to myself. I am hoping to find time this week, especially since it is busier than usual, to relax.

Moderation: 1: I was disappointed with my moderation for today since I felt like I have been making significant progress with this virtue. However, I am not really sure if I could have moderated my time any better today. I went from school to basketball tryouts, to soccer, and now, finally home to do homework. I think I might try to get some more homework out of the way, that way I have less to do later in the week. Hopefully, this will give me more time to do something that I enjoy!

Patience: 2: With such a hectic day, I honestly felt like I never had time to be patient. However, I felt like I was, hopefully, patient with others.

Contentment: 4: I feel like I have been making good progress with contentment. I journaled again today, and once more, I am finding that I am content with more things in my life than I have ever thought before.

I didn’t have the best day. I totally thought I could push through this tough week and just look forward to the nice, long break we are about to have, but today felt like a million years. I was trying to practice tranquility today, but didn’t do well because I was stressed all day about a few upcoming tests I have. I give myself a 2/5 for tranquility. I didn’t practice moderation at all today, so that’s going to be a solid 0/5. Academic acceptance started off very rough for me, because I was struggling with some of my classes, especially the ones I will be having tests in, but my attitude turned around when I found out I received a 29.5/30 on my chem graph! Academic acceptance gets 4/5 for the day. I sadly didn’t practice any passion today or patience, so those both get a 0/5. I’m really hoping that tomorrow will be a better day, along with the rest of the week. I hope everyone has a good Monday night 🙂

Today could have been worse. I started my day off quite negative. I was tired, I was upset that I need help with chemistry, and I was just not having it. I went in and got help, and started my day off slow. Working on tranquility and acceptance as my top priorities today because of how poorly I did the night before. My day was slow but I begin to have a good day after getting a good meal in during lunch. I found my inner peace today ignoring the fact I had little to no sleep, and I turned my day around. At the end of the day I have weights class, today working on my cleanliness as well, I stayed after school to finish my workout. Pushing myself through a workout because I knew it would satisfy me after. Overall after starting out pretty rough, I pushed through and made it a decently swell day. Overall I would give myself a B+. I hope everyone had a great day and if you need something to motivate you through this week, remember, next week is thanksgiving break! Goodnight:)

My day was really good as I felt like all of my virtues went pretty well. Tranquility was successful today, especially after my fitness class where we did yoga. It was honestly a really relaxing way to start the day. It gave me a lot of peace to face the stresses of the beginning of the week.

I did fairly well on patience today. The reason I say that is because I really didn’t have anything in my day that made me anxious or feel overwhelmed to the point where I had to breathe and just be patient. So, it was a really positive day but I wasn’t really able to work on that virtue which I think is an accomplishment in itself. 

Moderation was great as I was able to spend time with my friends a lot today, which is something that I haven’t been able to do much of lately. I have been focusing on homework and getting ahead for the week as well as resting from tennis and recovering. I am so sore after playing all weekend!

Order was alright because I have been putting things away in my room and from my suitcase but it’s still pretty messy. I feel like I need to really commit once to cleaning it all up and starting fresh but it has been really hard for me to just set aside time to do that. 

Joy was great today because I got to be with my friends. They bring me a lot of happiness and just being around them makes me feel lucky and grateful to have them in my life. I really want to prioritize time with them because I am always so much better-off when I get to see them. 

I hope all of you have had a good start to your week!

I had a successful day with all of my virtues. I went to bed early last night which helped me get up this morning and organize myself and make sure I didn’t leave a mess of a room behind for when I get home. For both order and cleanliness, that helped start my day out right. With patience, I felt really tired this morning but as the day went on I felt more energized and kept patient with myself, especially as it is a Monday. Balance was okay, I didn’t have a lot of homework so I got to talk to my parents and catch up with my friends who went out of town this weekend, but I was also exhausted and kind of drained making it a little bit of a challenge. Lastly, with kindness I went to a workout class, being kind to myself, and also checking in on a few friends I hadn’t talked to in awhile. Overall, today was a a good start to my week.

Today I tried working more on patience and acceptance. I nanny twin six year old girls, and sometimes that can be a lot to handle. Today they started to get very tired and fussy and instead of getting frustrated with them, I just let the little things go and remembered to not get annoyed. I also did not do as good on a test as I hoped and realized it is okay to get a B sometimes. I tried very hard and studied a lot but I had to accept that I can not always get an A on everything. I found it very hard to be able to accept things. 

Cleanliness-B

Order-B

Productivity-A

Patience- A

Acceptance- B

Today I worked mostly on order and cleanliness. Right when I got home from school, I immediately cleaned my room. I organized my closet and cleaned it out a lot. I always feel so much relief after getting my stuff organized and it makes me happy. I also beat procrastination today, which is being productive. After I cleaned my room, I got all of my homework done around 6:30 and then had the rest of the night to do whatever I wanted to. I already feel so much better and there is no stress because I gave myself enough time to get everything done. 

Cleanliness-A

Order-A

Productivity-A

Patience- B

Acceptance- C

For this day, I was great with my self control virtue as eating well, and not junk food, was needed to get through the game I had this day. I was still not very tranquil or honest as usual, but I toned it down slightly from yesterday, as we were playing an easier team. Off the field I did great with tranquility and honesty, just to note. For sincerity, there wasn’t anything to be sincere about this day, as I didn’t promise anything to anyone. I did finish my homework, but there was no need to be studious and study as I didn’t have a test the next day.

For this day, I finally was able to wake up on time, achieving the sincerity towards my promises to wake up early. Though, this was because I had a soccer game this morning and was required to get up early and not sleep in. It was much harder to keep up with my tranquility virtue today. I was constantly getting annoyed with my teammates for the duration of the game, which is usual. I did lie a few times to the referee, which wasn’t in line with my honesty virtue. I had great self-control when it came to eating that day, because I needed to eat well in order to recover to play the next game. I completely ignored any studying or homework all together. It was hard to focus on my virtues this day, as I had two games, so I wasn’t as focused on them, so it wasn’t the best day in terms of keeping true to my virtues.

So today was going well, then i learned some not so great news about my health i’m going to need to make some long term changes to my diet and overall existence. I’ve thought about just stopping going to the doctors, nothing good happens there. But i feel like i reacted alright to it and

Cleanliness: I kept myself and the space around me pretty clean. I did have a ton of time to do any crazy level of cleaning but I succeeded in picking up after myself and keeping myself clean. i’ll give myself a B

resolution: I think that the changes that i’ll be making to my existence fall well under here so i may start holding myself accountable under this concept. I got everywhere I needed to be on time and found solutions to problems that came up as they came up. Im pretty ok with how i did this today, i give myself a B

tranquility: Even though I learned what I didn’t let it affect how I felt about my day. I was able to go home and do what I needed to do and simply continue on with my day. I give myself a A

order: i kept to what i needed to do and filled out my planner. I was able to approach the day with my goals and feeling ok. I give myself an A

Human: I did really well today just existing without too much fear of what people thought of me. I just want to get my body and mind back on track but in the whole grandious scheme of things i wasn’t that anxious. I was talkative and joyful. I give myself an A

For this day, I was able to get back on track with my self control virtue. I did not eat any junk food today at all, in preparation for my games on the weekend and to make up for yesterday. I wasn’t very sincere with myself as I made a promise to myself to get up right away, but instead I slept in for 15 minutes. Once again I did well with tranquility. I did well with my honesty virtue. I didn’t have anything to study for this day, but I did some of my homework for the weekend instead of waiting until Sunday.

For this day, I had a small slip up with my self-control virtue as I ate an ice cream bar, but I hope to do better tomorrow. I did well with my honesty virtue again as so far there has been no temptation to lie. I was able to keep calm for today, which was not hard as nothing really annoyed me this day. I had to study for a physics quiz this day, I could have studied for longer, but it was only a quiz and I felt confident on the material that would be on the quiz. So, overall, it was a good day.

Today was Friday November 12 and today I worked on faith. I realized this morning that I would not be able to make our family prayer on Sunday. To make up for that I decide to pray this morning. I also will pray before bed. I was actually really proud of my decision, because today was the first day I actually though ahead, and based the virtue I wanted to work on based on my reflection. This weekend I am playing in a tournament so I want to focus on sincerity.

This day was sort of a celebratory day for me. I had my final show at 2:00 PM, and that went super well. I used that time to practice bliss, because that show is very fun to do. After that, I was able to spend the rest of the day relaxing. I went to grab food with some friends and then hung out with them for the rest of the night. This gave me a chance to practice appreciation. I haven’t gotten a lot of free time recently, so it felt really great to have some. Although the day wasn’t very organized or necessarily clean, I would call this day a success.

Yesterday was very chaotic. Everything was a disaster! Throughout the weekend I thought I was doing decently well with managing homework, and I was getting my blogs done. Sunday came around and I had a bunch of chemistry homework that I did not understand. Working on acceptance, I continuously looked at my chemistry grade displeased with the B I had. Stressing about my B, I could not figure out the homework, and I continued to worry about my grade. I would give acceptance a D-. I was able to stay tranquil with my baby all weekend until yesterday, I wanted my sleep and kept getting woken up and I would get upset. I struggled with staying tranquil, and I hope it will be better today once I get a full nights rest. Overall yesterday with tranquility would receive a C-. Cleanliness was not too bad. I have realized it is hard to incorporate healthy eating when I am with friends, I struggle to contain my cravings. Although I could have eaten worse. For the reasoning I would give myself a B-. Yesterday could have been better, but I am hoping today will go better for me. I hope everyones weekend went well for them!

moderation- A

frugality- A

accountability- B

self-discipline- A

cleanliness- A

Today was the best day of following and improving on my virtues. I started off my day by waking up and doing my school work. This was a surprise to me because I normally don’t have the motivation to do my homework until later. Then I went to my sister’s house and raked and bagged leaves for four and a half hours. After that I came home and played XBox with my little brother. I spent more time with my family today than the rest of the days for this challenge. After I played Xbox with my brother I had a family dinner then I ended the night going over to a friends house to watch the chiefs game. Today my work ethic was better than any day during the challenge.

Today I woke up late in the morning. This really helped with my mild illness, as now I was feeling much better. The only problem with waking up this late was that I felt very lethargic, and my industry ended up not being very good today as I was not working on anything very quickly. I did however, resolve to do my homework pretty early making my resolution pretty good today. I did an average job at order, but even though I gave proper time to homework, my lack of industry meant that this was the only thing I really did today. My moderation also wasn’t very good because all I did was work on homework and watch the Chiefs game, but at least it gave me a pretty relaxing day. My final virtue of Justice was hard to work on, because I really didn’t talk to anyone that I could have given due justice to. Overall, the day was mixed, but certainly not my best day for my virtues.

This day I focused on Order. It was a day full of tests and labs at school and in order to succeed, I needed to practice being organized and prepared. It started out rough, due to the fact that I forgot my calculator at home. Besides that, I would say the day was pretty successful in terms of organization. I used my planner to write down my homework, I took good notes In math and APUSH, and I remembered to go to my guitar lesson before my show. As for that night, I had my opening night of my show. I had to practice bliss, because this show was a huge source of stress for me. The notes I had to sing were high, and there was a lot of pressure to be funny. In order to help myself, I decided to just try and enjoy the experience as much as I could in order to have a better night. It worked, and my experience in the show was a very good one.

moderation- B

frugality- A

accountability- B

self-discipline- C

cleanliness- D

Today was the first day of the challenge during the weekend. I had a college football party at my neighbors house today so I didn’t have to spend money on food. Also because of this football party I was able to spend time with my family at the same time as hanging out with my friends. This was my strongest day for my moderation virtue because I spent equal amounts of time with my friends and my family. I didn’t make it to the gym today because I spent all day at my neighbors house. Even though I didn’t make it to the gym I in a way made it up because I played a lot of backyard football today. I feel it was harder to focus on my virtues over the weekend. I don’t go on my computer over the weekend until Sunday most weekends so there were times I forgot to focus on my virtues. 

Today I focused on Tranquility because I didn’t have anything planned. To do this I relaxed all day and played some video games with my friends. This was really good in helping my tranquility because I wasn’t focused on anything and could relax. I would give this strategy a 8/10 because I was very unproductive for the day, but it was also important to have a day like this. My Order is at a 10/10 because I have all of my homework done for the weekend. My Sincerity is a 10/10 because I spent an hour or so hanging out with my brother. My Humility is a 8/10 because I was being arrogant after beating my brother in video games. Frugality is still at a 10/10 because I have been able to save my money.

Industry: 5/5
Order: 1/5
Flexibility: 4/5
Resolution: 5/5
Tranquility: 1/5

Today I did pretty well in a couple of the virtues. I certainly spent a lot of time working dedicatedly on industry, though it was not in a particularly ordered fashion. I’m up a bit late on that regard. This week should allow me to become more ordered because I’ll be more focused on school. I also continue to forget that cleanliness is not actually one of my virtues. If it was, going for a run today would count for it and flexibility. Running is difficult, but it’s good family time. My day was for the most part wasted today, but I had to go through it to find that out.